14
Before I turn 14 I truly believed in love, and the sacred passage that is losing your virginity. I think from a young age I was overtly "mature" for my age; adults used to say I was like an old soul and kids my age used to believe I was some sort of rebel who smoked and stole. I don't at all think that that makes me unique or unlike other 14 year old British girls. If anything it just made me fit into a stereotype. Which I hated because I always believed myself to be above those stupid categories we were all boxed into. It was weird because I understood the maturity from both perspectives- at 12 I was studying a level literature, in the top sets in school, and was the first to give a blowjob and be fingered in my year. It sounds so juvenile, because it was. But at the time it was everything to me, I wanted to be better than my siblings, cousins and peers academically, domestically, and just generally. So what did I do? Landed myself an older boyfriend, who smoked weed, ...